Comments on: I Don’t Belong Here

By: Sister Wolf

Sister Wolf — Thu, 11 Nov 2021 04:35:48 +0000

Jeri – I understand.And I wish I could make it better. You just have to ride it out. For the people who love you, you just have to. You know that thing that Joe Biden keep saying: “believe me, one day you’ll think of your loved one with a smile instead of tears.” It’s so stupid and it has really annoyed me. But this year it happened to me, after 11 years. Time will make it easier to bear. Meanwhile, I know your son wants you to be happy, just like mine does for me. xoxo

By: Jeri

Jeri — Wed, 10 Nov 2021 20:15:57 +0000

Very interesting, as I find all of your thoughtful writing. Who am I? I have lost my anchor, my identity, my understanding of what it means to be a human, my reason for being, my son. So I am a raging river bouncing off the rocks, covered by a thin veneer of ice masking as my human face. One quote I heard recently is humility is the greatest virtue. I’m not sure why this is significant to me except that I have truly been humbled.

By: Sister Wolf

Sister Wolf — Thu, 04 Nov 2021 07:49:39 +0000

Kellie – Well, you see you’re not alone in this. I agree about the pandemic. Being without the usual distractions has been destabilzing and not in a good way. We will have to exist as formless entities…but maybe that will be a relief at some point??
Dana – The leper colony sounds good. It must be nice to feel noble! I think I have the opposite problem from what you describe: I can sit and do nothing, all day and all night. It scares me. As long as the TV is blaring, I will just sit, like it’s my job.

By: Dana

Dana — Fri, 29 Oct 2021 00:55:59 +0000

Overly fascinated by my visceral reactions, aka, girly weirdo. I could go on, and on here. But I won’t.
Fuck it, I will. We are human beings, not human doings (Anne Lamott). And apparently in Black culture, you never ask a person, what do you do for a living? That person may not, and it’s not indicative of their value anyway.
As a white navel gazing American, I continue to gnaw over what’s left after the losses in my life. I had a career once. My kids are growing and leaving in stages, but I know, fuck me for ever even comparing that to what you’ve been through. Mother is so powerful. It’s a role and a job and a name. There is never a more powerful time in your life than when you single handedly keep the small people alive and happy (I know, fathers, but come ON). It’s not so hard intellectually when they’re little, but physically it will kick your ass. It flips suddenly sometime between the ages of 7-13. Then the intellectual will kick your ass. Oh, and break your heart.
Is it that us white Americans don’t know how to relax? I either require to be sleeping, or doing something useful, even if it pisses me off. I can’t just sit there. Meditation? Can I go work in a leper colony when the kids no longer need my health insurance or will I still be too much of a wimp? Will the kids get my 401ks outright when I’m no longer useful and kill myself? Just some of the regular programming here. Cheers

By: Kellie

Kellie — Thu, 28 Oct 2021 23:54:24 +0000

I am a weirdo too. And also have lost my identity. 10 year relationship ended. Closed my business of 17 years. Over 50.
I have literally no idea who I am anymore. Or if I want to continue existing in this weird space I now reside in, with anxiety as my closest companion.
Strange isnt it? The pandemic changed everything for me, but not in the predictable ways. In weird, odd, unforeseen ways.

By: Sister Wolf

Sister Wolf — Wed, 27 Oct 2021 04:06:55 +0000

Pocketsound – I wish there were more of you so you could enjoy your sense of humor together, but meanwhile you have me. And I have you! Very grateful xo

By: Pocketsound

Pocketsound — Wed, 27 Oct 2021 02:57:42 +0000

A superweirdo! But more of an optimist than your type. Not that I try, it is just easier for me. I think I’m too lazy to complain or be offended, so I just amuse myself with how absurd everything and everyone is. I laugh so loud that it stops a room, and that amuses me too. Everybody is so uptight! Would it be nice if there was another “me” that I could share these observations with, yes, but sadly nobody “gets” them despite my “sharing”, so I am just okay with knowing I am here to amuse myself, in so many ways.
I’m here aren’t I, you must be a writer.