She did sue the hospital who dismissed her daughter’s wrist cutting a few days earlier and sent her home. The hospital’s psychiatrist told my learned friend, who begged for at least a 72 hour hold, that this was a ‘half-hearted’ attempt and to take her home and send her to school the next day. Two days later she found her dead. The money she finally received from the settlement is being put in a foundation, details not yet to be finalized, as she just received the money. Her goals for this ‘blood money’ (her words) has helped her heal a little.

Sister, I send you my love and a warm, understanding hug.

Sister, you need to stop reducing me to tears. I’m a man, godammit!

xoxoxo

I don’t believe in an afterlife, but the energy within a human life that causes it to exist… the electricity between synapses, the spirit, the soul – whatever you like to call it – it is returned to the energy of the world when it passes. If this energy had a consciousness – it would not want you to live in torment – it is not existing in torment. It is at peace, harmoniously a part of the ether. And within this peace so should you take extraordinary comfort in the tiny current of electricity that runs through every living thing – because a part of that is your son.

Grief is extraordinary but you can manage your path through it. There is no blame where Max is – so too must you let go of the blame and walk down your path unburdened. You will get to the end of the path faster without a load on your shoulders.

All my love. xx