{"id":13850,"date":"2019-07-29T19:10:39","date_gmt":"2019-07-30T02:10:39","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/godammit.com\/?p=13850"},"modified":"2019-07-29T19:10:39","modified_gmt":"2019-07-30T02:10:39","slug":"to-be-or-nah","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/godammit.com\/to-be-or-nah\/","title":{"rendered":"To Be or Nah"},"content":{"rendered":"

Recently my brain has come up with a philosophical dilemma that I can’t solve. I know the best solution would be to stop thinking about it. Nevertheless, here it is:<\/p>\n

By “matter’, I mean does it still have a bearing on the present. Is it still relevant? Are you responsible for your past actions, and do past events have consequences that can’t be dismissed, morally speaking? Can you renounce the past and live in the present without reference or reflection? Does “Now” matter more than yesterday or tomorrow?<\/p>\n

If only Now matters, than nothing matters. Because once it’s over, it’s a new Now. And if nothing matters, why go on?<\/p>\n

Or<\/strong>, if the past matters, and you have experienced unbearable tragedy or loss, why pretend it’s over and that you can move on? According to Faulkner, “The past is never dead. It’s not even past.”\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

Going about my daily life, I lack motivation for almost everything, and it’s easy to just decide to go back to bed. Going back to bed isn’t a crime and it’s not fattening. It’s peaceful and comforting. Sometimes, getting up again seems futile but I’m able to take a perverse satisfaction in doing it anyway, just as Camus describes Sisyphus.<\/p>\n

Maybe the key for me is to live in the same spirit as Sisyphus. I once told Max that the purpose of life is to withstand irritation. Don’t worry: He was probably nearly thirty and already had his own ideas. Years earlier, he told me he felt like a contraption with its wires exposed. We were talking about the advent of Prozac, and whether it was a good thing or a bad thing to eliminate one’s deep sense of melancholy. What a ridiculous question! If only a drug could do that, without ultimately killing you.<\/p>\n

Back to the original dilemma, what are your thoughts? I want to hear them.<\/p>\n

*Also, how much would you like to hear Shakespeare<\/a> done in AAVE<\/a>? My kingdom for that shit. Seriously. I certainly can’t understand it as written.<\/p>\n

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