{"id":14386,"date":"2020-07-24T15:39:44","date_gmt":"2020-07-24T22:39:44","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/godammit.com\/?p=14386"},"modified":"2020-08-01T16:18:51","modified_gmt":"2020-08-01T23:18:51","slug":"at-least-we-still-have-words-sort-of","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/godammit.com\/at-least-we-still-have-words-sort-of\/","title":{"rendered":"At Least We Still Have Words. Sort of."},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/godammit.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/07\/electropathic-belt-wellcome.gif?ssl=1\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-14395\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/godammit.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/07\/electropathic-belt-wellcome.gif?resize=455%2C700&#038;ssl=1\" alt=\"\" width=\"455\" height=\"700\" data-recalc-dims=\"1\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>I just learned a new word that describes my condition: <a href=\"https:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Avolition\">avolition<\/a>.<\/p>\n<blockquote><p>People with avolition often want to complete certain tasks but lack the ability to initiate behaviours necessary to complete them. Avolition is most commonly seen as a symptom of some other disorder, but might be considered a primary clinical disturbance of itself (or as a coexisting second disorder) related to disorders of diminished motivation.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>It&#8217;s not the same as laziness, which is assumed to be a choice. It&#8217;s not the same as apathy, which is:<\/p>\n<blockquote><p>a lack of feeling, emotion, interest, or concern about something. It is a state of indifference, or the suppression of emotions such as concern, excitement, motivation, or passion. An apathetic individual has an absence of interest in or concern about emotional, social, spiritual, philosophical, or physical life and the world.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>I have a surfeit of concern, interest and emotion, currently; I just can&#8217;t do anything. Is this Covid related? Is it the result of being stuck at home for a billion days in a row? Of having only one other person in my environment? Of not having to hustle for money? Hours on the couch, watching TV? The lack of concrete things to look forward to, given the uncertainty of the &#8220;new normal?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>The term &#8220;new normal&#8221; still arouses my ire, so that&#8217;s good, right? Also the word &#8220;Zoom.&#8221; Also the shortening of\u00a0 the already annoying &#8220;folks&#8221; to &#8220;folk.&#8221; Folk have grown tired of systemic racism, sure, but so have PEOPLE!<\/p>\n<p>Back to avolition, here are some of the things I can&#8217;t do: deal with bills, get dressed, water the lawn, cook, put my shoes away, make the bed, make phone-calls, clean the house, drive, or write. It&#8217;s not so much Why Bother as much as it is I just Can&#8217;t.<\/p>\n<p>I did force myself to sit at the computer to write this! It might be an aberration or the Something of my condition. What is the word I should use here instead of Something? I genuinely can&#8217;t think of it. I could use &#8220;abatement&#8221; but that&#8217;s not a word in my normal lexicon.<\/p>\n<p>Something something something something! Something something.<\/p>\n<p>I started keeping a list of words I was unable to retrieve for either hours or days.<br \/>\n<strong>orchid<\/strong><br \/>\n<strong>aurora<\/strong><br \/>\n<strong>Robert Duval<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>But then I stopped keeping the list, because avolition. I will try to start again. If I get enough to make a haiku, it will be a worthwhile project.<\/p>\n<p>Do projects have to be worthwhile? I hope not. What are you guys up to? Are you putting your shoes away? Any new words? Advice or [something]?<\/p>\n<p><em>images (c) Wellcome Library<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I just learned a new word that describes my condition: avolition. People with avolition often want to complete certain tasks but lack the ability to initiate behaviours necessary to complete them. 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