{"id":3817,"date":"2010-01-03T23:37:41","date_gmt":"2010-01-04T07:37:41","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.godammit.com\/?p=3817"},"modified":"2010-01-03T23:37:41","modified_gmt":"2010-01-04T07:37:41","slug":"more-girls-i-want-to-be","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/godammit.com\/more-girls-i-want-to-be\/","title":{"rendered":"More Girls I Want To Be"},"content":{"rendered":"

Today I came across this bewitching long-haired girl and recognized her at once as another<\/a> girl I want to be.<\/p>\n

I don’t see many of them but when I do see one, it’s like an ache of remorse and disappointment. It’s like, I should<\/em> have been her! What happened? \u00a0 Here is another one. Her name is Pandora<\/strong>, apparently, which spells trouble, but I’d like to wake up and be her anyway. Click on her to see the full glory.<\/p>\n

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It seems to be all about hair, doesn’t it? It’s not just<\/em> the hair, but hair is a big deal for me. I used to have a recurring nightmare that someone had cut off my hair. It’s a little like the one where you’re spitting out your teeth. The other night I dreamed there were bugs in my bathtub, and when I tried to squash them, they got bigger. \u00a0 I would say that’s a Sisyphus dream….or maybe it’s just about anxiety.<\/p>\n

Here’s another girl, I can’t remember where I found her but I see I have saved the picture as: “I will be her!”<\/p>\n

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Here’s a young model named Zippora Seven<\/strong>. Eerily reminiscent of Pandora, name-wise.<\/p>\n

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Why didn’t I get to be any of these girls? It’s a mystery I will never understand. Of course, I would much rather be Patti Smith<\/strong> or Amanda Palmer<\/strong>, but at this point I’ve learned to settle for worshiping them.<\/p>\n

Looking through my file of photos, I came across this artist whose name is poetry itself: Marion Tampon-Lajarriette<\/strong>.<\/p>\n

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I don’t want to be her but I like the idea of putting “tampon” in my name like that. I guess that’s what Art is all about.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"