{"id":8771,"date":"2012-06-01T01:07:39","date_gmt":"2012-06-01T09:07:39","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.godammit.com\/?p=8771"},"modified":"2012-08-16T00:22:49","modified_gmt":"2012-08-16T08:22:49","slug":"fear","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/godammit.com\/fear\/","title":{"rendered":"Fear"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.godammit.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/05\/Big-snake.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-8772\" title=\"Big snake\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.godammit.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/05\/Big-snake.jpg?resize=332%2C544\" alt=\"\" width=\"332\" height=\"544\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/godammit.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/05\/Big-snake.jpg?w=332&amp;ssl=1 332w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/godammit.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/05\/Big-snake.jpg?resize=183%2C300&amp;ssl=1 183w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 332px) 100vw, 332px\" data-recalc-dims=\"1\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m not afraid of snakes, spiders or bees. I&#8217;m not afraid of death. I&#8217;m just afraid of everything else.<\/p>\n<p>Today, I was afraid to walk down my driveway because I saw a Thing that looked like a cat but wouldn&#8217;t move when I honked my horn at it. I&#8217;m terrified of possums and \u00a0raccoons and squirrels, all of which inhabit my urban neighborhood. (Signs of the apocalypse, obviously.)<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m so afraid of falling that I dread taking a walk. I fell last week and skinned my knees but it was traumatizing to hit the pavement. After breaking my pelvis and hip by falling, I feel deeply unsafe about my body. Why don&#8217;t other people fall and break?<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m afraid of hospitals, now that I know what happens there. I&#8217;m afraid of lice, rodents, thunder, large knives, and medical disorders like fistulas and prolapse of the uterus or bladder.<\/p>\n<p>I hate being so fearful. Many of these fears are new ones, and I&#8217;m not \u00a0including the universal ones like clowns and cancer. It&#8217;s strange to be vulnerable to so many fears at a time when I contemplate every tall structure with the question of whether it&#8217;s high enough for jumping, should I choose to depart.<\/p>\n<p>Fears or diagnoses, anyone?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;m not afraid of snakes, spiders or bees. I&#8217;m not afraid of death. I&#8217;m just afraid of everything else. Today, I was afraid to walk down my driveway because I saw a Thing that looked like a cat but wouldn&#8217;t &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/godammit.com\/fear\/\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","enabled":false}}},"categories":[9,5],"tags":[573,1035,716],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/s7t44M-fear","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/godammit.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8771"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/godammit.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/godammit.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/godammit.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/godammit.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=8771"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/godammit.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8771\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/godammit.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=8771"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/godammit.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=8771"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/godammit.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=8771"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}