{"id":9796,"date":"2013-08-21T01:07:47","date_gmt":"2013-08-21T09:07:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.godammit.com\/?p=9796"},"modified":"2013-08-21T01:07:47","modified_gmt":"2013-08-21T09:07:47","slug":"fear-of-old-ladies","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/godammit.com\/fear-of-old-ladies\/","title":{"rendered":"Fear of Old Ladies"},"content":{"rendered":"

It has taken several days to emerge from the spell cast by Top of the Lake<\/strong><\/a>. I miss the weird atmosphere and the intensity of the relationships.<\/p>\n

Now that I’m back in my own world, I’m preoccupied by the creepiness of women who look like old ladies.<\/p>\n

I know how wrong this is, believe me. My husband always encourages me to embrace growing old. I know it happens to everyone, you can’t stop time, blah blah blah. And yet it’s so creepy.<\/p>\n

Look at Jane Campion<\/strong> and Holly Hunter<\/strong>, 59 and 55 years old, respectively. They are dynamic, vibrant woman and Holly’s hair isn’t really silver in real life. But still. The old ladiness bothers me.<\/p>\n

On the other hand, I’d be mad at them if they tried to be sexpots with bursting faces like Madonna. I can’t find a way to be an old lady that doesn’t feel tragic or enraging.<\/p>\n

What do you think of Jane and Holly? Is it the androgyny that’s bothering me? They project a ‘Fuck You if You Don’t Like it’ attitude, which I normally admire. Are they saying that they don’t care about being attractive, or are they attractive in a way I don’t get? Would they look better with dyed hair, or is it the length that brings to mind wrinkly old wizards?<\/p>\n

I have a week left before I turn sixty. I am disgusted by how shallow I am, but still. I can’t handle it.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"