I’ve been unable to write due to problems with concentration and a profound apathy coupled with a deep sense of hopelessness. The usual, only more debilitating.
My mental hygiene is not what it should be. I like to watch the news on MSNBC for hours on end, without moving except to scroll through Instagram, clicking like a lab rat, heart heart heart. Last night I stayed up watching TV til 5:am, just to hear more outrage about our beloved leader.
But now the sight of these jeans has cleared the cobwebs away, so to speak. I once knew a woman who said she needed to “get laid” every so often just to clear the cobwebs away. Isn’t that awful? No wonder I can’t remember her name. But I remember when she said it. It was an instant deal-breaker.
Anyway, behold. These “Tulle-trim crystal-embellished straight-leg jeans” by Germanier are $764 but already sold out in my size. Shit. Here is the rear view.
Sustainable label Germanier repurposes glittering silver and black crystals which would have otherwise gone to waste to create these playful blue high-rise jeans. Cut to a slim, straight silhouette, they’re trimmed with black tulle which drapes elegantly down the side. Style them with a white T-shirt for an ultra-contemporary look.
Wait, huh? Aren’t they still going to waste??? And what do they mean by “elegant”? Well, who cares, truth is beauty and beauty is truth.
If you REALLY have balls, denimwise, you would forget the jeans with tulle and go straight to this:
Junya Watanabe knows how to bring the crazy. Just feast your eyes! When you walk into a room wearing this, you’ll know where that extra money went.
Short sleeve layered long dress in faded indigo denim and white cotton jersey. Asymmetric construction featuring tulle trim, lace detailing, pleats, and raw edge at hem. Rib knit crewneck collar. Half-zip closure at front. Zippered vent at side-seam. Silver-tone hardware. Tonal and contrast stitching in tan.
Part nurse, part fairy princess, part mental patient, you will be the center of attention at any event, for $2,415…but not if you’re a size large because that is sold out. Good, because a Large woman would be especially resplendent in this dress, don’t you think?
Okay then. You’re welcome! I’ll be back with some other shit before you know it.
Hideous/hilarious “fashions”, but your writing I always love. I follow you on Twitter, of course.
Dammit, girl, you must stop this habit of going a.w.o.l. without a word of explanation! As our cockney fraternity would put it, “It does me ‘ead in!”
Welcome back – and keep it up!
As a large woman, I’d like to be the focus of attention in that unfortunately sold-out 1/2 jean dress 1/2 lab coat. I share your deep sense of hopelessness. Please keep writing, I really look forward your posts, amid all the bleakness.
Its hard to be a blaeak friend with other bleak friends
We are all in a state of constant morose and outrage, and its so exhausting
Check in when you can, we all appreciate you.
I can imagine the people in the workshop that produced that dress rolling around on the floor in all the dollar bills or yen or whatever, laughing their heads off
Hey, Sister. I’ve worried about you. I can empathize. My beautiful son is still alive but has been killing himself since he was 11 years old. He’s now 45 and sentenced to two and a half years for burglary to support his hideous drug addiction.
I’ve worried about you. My son is still alive….six feet one….95 pounds…three teeth left…sentenced yesterday to 29 months in prison for burglary to support his meth addiction. I seethe with rage. Angry with him. With myself. With his father. With drug dealers. Mostly him. I go to bed at night and wonder what is the purpose? I wake up every morning knowing my purpose is to be here for his children. Four of them.
I have worried about you. I’ve followed you for years. I not only sympathize but empathize. I know what you’re going through. It sucks. Really sucks. But I have 4 grandchildren that our son has left for us to worry about….and we stay strong for them. Otherwise, what’s the point of it all? I stay strong for them. Stay strong. You have people that care. I’ve been drinking.
It’s extra disturbing when one of my favorites (Junya Watanabe) designs something hideous.
I’m sorry you’re feeling hopeless. I feel a sense of heavy dread and messy anxiety. I can take a Klonopin, but I don’t want to turn into Stevie Nicks so I limited myself to three per week. The non-Klonopin days are brutal, but Godammit.com helps. So thank you, and I hope find some relief from your hopelessness.
Love,
Marky
D.R. – I’m doing okay. But I’m so sorry to hear about your son. I remember we’ve discussed this before. What a terrible situation. What can I do to help? Write to me any time at sisterwolf666@gmail.com. Sending all atheist blessings and prayers.
Marky – I feel bad about Junya but what can you do? Be wary of Klonopin. It is the devil. Have you tried vaping some CBD? it’s pretty good for relaxing. xoxoxoxo.
CK – Yep, me too.
Kellie – Thank you! Fight the power! xoxo
Mary Beth – Thank you so much. We will find you a better dress! xoxo
David Duff – How could I ever leave you?
Miranda – Thank you for your encouragement! xoxo
Sister Wolf, I have missed you so. Your writing has kept me going (as in, alive) more times than you could ever know. Your intelligence, humor, and compassion, to me they are an antidote to despair. The medicine for my melancholy. I hope they work as well for you?
I don’t know if I’m stronger than I thought I was and all that bullshit, but I’m definitely aloner than I thought I would or could ever wind up being in my most terrifying nightmares, so I guess I’ll be finding out about the strong part. You help me feel stronger. Nothing makes me feel less alone, but I am better at saying fuck you to it. That’s a little bit strong, isn’t it?
I am always wishing you peace and sanity and all the anger you need. I have anger aplenty! Just ask, anytime.
xoxo
Missed You!
That is all.
I have so missed your wonderful writing. So glad to hear your voice.
So happy you’ve returned. I checked-in thinking there may have been an Oscars post but ugly denim is so much better. It’s a never ceasing category of giving.
Isn’t it wonderful that these crystals got to be repurposed? I’m not sure where crystals and gemstones normally go to die, but clearly, these were very bad crystals to have been banished to such a hellish garment.
I also like the way her leg is gushing black netting. It’s in mourning for her dignity.
We all learned something new today, Mom jeans CAN get worse.
The Junya is just stooopid but, in all honesty, I hate the model’s face more than the hideous garment.
Please spring clean the last of your cobwebs away and come back to us, Sis. Remember, we need your sound perspective and cutting wit in these crazy times. xxx
Bevitron – You are never alone while I’m here. You can always write to me or call me. Stay strong. What you said to me, I say back to you! You have helped me trough everything. xoxoxo
Ck – Thank you so much!
Jane Bentley – Thank you Jane!
Suspended- God, I Didn’t even notice her face. I’m not happy with it either. Thank you for the word “gushing!” I love you so much.
Just echoing everyone else here – so glad you’re back. I feel marginally less fucked up when you around.
mary – Thank you! I can’t tell you how encouraging this is.