Category Archives: grief

The Path Forward

Just kidding, there is no path forward; we are screwed. Our fate is sealed and there will be no place on earth that is safe from his malice, incompetence, and those sickening hand gestures. Weren’t we naive to believe in … Continue reading

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Nothing Compares.

I knew this was coming but it was still a shock. When I read that Sinead O’Connor had lost her son to suicide, it was a a given that she wouldn’t stick around. Her panic and horror were familiar, and … Continue reading

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She’s Glad Her Mom Died

I’m Glad My Mom Died is the title of a new memoir by a former child actress I’ve never heard of, and it’s a best seller. It has received more attention than any other recent book that’s not about Donald … Continue reading

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Because I’m a Monster

It has been a long and dismal few months. Our wonderful dog, Boris, passed away with cancer at 14 years old. Our whole world went dark. I realized that yet again I have lost a treasured part of my identity: … Continue reading

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Redecorating

I’ve always scoffed at people who redecorate their homes. It seems like such a waste of time and money, not to mention the most bourgeois activity I could imagine. Now, I’m thinking about redecorating, so I finally understand the motivation: … Continue reading

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Heartbreak and the Dik-Dik

I always click on the saddest, most horrible articles in the New York Times online. Yesterday, I read about a study finding that parents who lose a child have an increased risk of heart attacks. The idea being that heartbreak … Continue reading

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I Don’t Belong Here

I was intrigued by an essay positing that people with autism experience identity differently from neurotypicals. The writer had surveyed thousands of people in online groups, asking the simple question, Who are you? I didn’t really care about or agree … Continue reading

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Adderall and Subtracterall

I stopped writing here because I felt I had nothing to say that I haven’t already said. I still feel that but now I’m worried that “use it or lose it” might apply to my ability to put words together … Continue reading

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Narcissists and Psychopaths

Against my better judgment, I joined an online support group for people estranged from their adult children. Sure enough, the expression “misery loves company” proved to be wholly inaccurate. It was like being submerged in a vat of hurt and … Continue reading

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A Better Heaven and a Great Big Shell

If you watched the memorial today for the 400,000 Americans killed by Covid-19, symbolized by two long columns of light, you must have cried like I did. All the people on MSNBC cried too, either sniffling or sobbing, all grateful … Continue reading

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